Can I go into the amazingness that has been the year 2011, can I go into the struggle and pain and shit that the year 2011 has been? I don't know, it's been a lot to process. It started with the Southern Fried Burlesque Festival and has come to me losing my troupe partner. I have had this amazing year where I have had the opportunity to travel to Colorado for the Colorado Burlesque Festival, Albequerque, NM,. for ABurlyQ and even to Seattle for BurlyCon(which was something I never thought I could ever achieve), come to accept that I am a good performer and watched my partner sink into a cloud of depression and negativity that has coloured and changed her view of herself and burlesque.

I have gained so much this year, and by the end of it I may lose it all. How the hell am I to process that? This troupe that has been created is on the verge of something beautiful and has been all year and now we have the chance to really take it there and I hope we will have that option come January 2012. 

I cannot express how much all these burned fingers(glue gun) blood, sweat, tears, joy, bliss, anger, sacrifice and plain old fashioned hard work have all been worth it. How I am not surprised at how much Burlesque means to me, but how deeply the troupe has touched me. How much I feel that I am living life to my potential and the wonder and awe that I still have so much more to learn and to give. 

So we'll see. Already the 2012 year seems beyond my wildest dreams with the chance to tour....maybe twice! All the festivals that I am already attending and those that I might get to attend and exploring our new local venues and teaching a new crop of Burlesque students.

How time flies, I've been doing this since 2005....seems like just yesterday.